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bedroom walls

by Athena Lawton

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official music video: youtu.be/9tdQGv7oMkg

I wrote this song when my best friend and uncle Monty Lawton was in the hospital during lockdown and I was unable to be by his side. He had loaned me a Zoom H1n field recorder to document my ukulele songs, and when I opened up the files I found a piano improv he accidentally left on the memory card. I made my first ever loops using sections of that improv, which fit perfectly with a melody I had recorded weeks before. I wrote and recorded the vocals in one sitting and sent it to him that day.

Bedroom walls is about depression and being unable to see outside of your own despair, but caring so much for another person who you know is also struggling, and begging them to try. It's about friendship, memories, and not being able to be near the people you love.

He loved the song so much that he bought me a mixing board and gave me his old mic setup. That gesture of support made me believe my songs might be worth something to someone else. I realized they might be worth something to me. This song led to the creation of my album "Girl Bird," coming soon on all platforms.

Thank you to Josh, my dad, Lee, and the Writing Teddys for believing in me.


I don't like feeling like my world is getting smaller
I'm seeing black and white, I'm running out of colors
I heard there are better days ahead
I can't see the sky outside my bedroom walls

behind the wheel I will be on my best behavior
driving in your car I feel the world's a little safer
faster now my world is turning red
thinking of the sky outside my bedroom walls

look in the distance or you're bound to get nearsighted
if you can hear me set your eyes on the horizon
write a poem about the moon instead
dream about the sky outside your bedroom walls

they say to get through this that we all need each other
I know I need you but don't know about the others
sometimes you say you wish you were dead
try to see the sky outside your bedroom walls


released September 3, 2021
Music and Lyrics by Athena Lawton
Piano sample by Monty Lawton
Beat by Joshua Handford and Athena Lawton

Produced by Athena Lawton
Mixed by Jino Arielly
Mastered by Barry Wood


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Athena Lawton Los Angeles, California

I was raised by a folk musician and I couldn't get it out of my system.

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